No going back

Wow, its so easy to loose track of time isnt it. I thought I had posted another blog since the last one but not it seems. 

So whats happening in my world then. 

As I mentioned in the last blog, I had my first quarterly bloods done since I started on hormones. You may recall I have a quarterly testosterone blocker injection and patches full of estrogen. One stops one, the other replaces it. 

I kicked off on "50" patches for a month, upped them to "100" and then it was time for the review. My base level estrogen was low as you would expect. The target was 400 - im good with numbers but not necessarily what they mean - so I expected a slow climb. I had read various case studies that suggested it may take years before differences occur but I always subscribed to the idea that we are each our own individual  and thus we all have different destinies. 

Well Ive attested in past blogs to some of the changes so far. However my blood results came back with a figure of 231 as opposed to the target 400. First feeling was of disappointment, barely over half way. Second however was well if thats happened on 231 what will happen when im at 400!

So my GP upped my dose to 125 whilst I referred back to my endo to update him. Endo replied happy to go to 150 and my GP has just signed it off. 

So to put all that in context. In 5 months of hormone therapy (50 + 4 x 100) I have gone from having no chest to a clear A cup. I snuggly fit an A cup bra now and  as a result I have had to downgrade in terms of size my prosthetics by 1 cup size. 

I terms of other changes, I am seeing a change in fat redistribution with more flowing to the hips (more exercise needed) and I had a first instance of an over emotional response. I expect more of that to come when my dose is upped by 50%. Apologies in advance. 

So now I am hitting the point of no return. From now on, this is permanent. Can't go back and this will be me. Good I say. Its starting to feel like my body is mine and starting to look like it should. Be interesting to see where it all ends up and what I will look like.

I think I've said it before but it's worth repeating. This blog is my story. Straight from the horses mouth so to speak. Not my version or me trying to convince you of something. I have nothing to gain by embellishments or misinformation. This is the truth. Nothing added or taken away. The intention was always to educate and inform, to enable people to understand both me and what being transgender is about. 

Its also therapeutic for me to tell people what is going on. 

However in the event you hear something to the contrary, please take it with a lot of scepticism. This is the source to be relied upon. There remains a lot misinformation about being transgender and I intend to correct that.

In the meantime, I'm out and about. Shopping, meeting friends and just being me. The more I do the more content I am.

Untill next time. Take care, be safe but don't forget your friends and family.

Amanda xx