Just a trim.

I've mentioned before that part of my journey has been getting used to the whole experience of a hairdresser.

Yup all new to me. When I first transitioned I used a wig whilst my hair grew out. Hair grows slowly so it took a while and it was very grey. 

A few tests with hair dye and I've found the colour I'm happy with now.

Then comes a point to get it styled, but by who. Mobile hairdresser first which felt weird. Second two trips were on recommendation but just didn't feel comfortable and it was perhaps over cut so I got really phobic about getting my hair cut so just let it grow and grow. No cut, no styling and it got out of hand.

I was getting fed up and had seen a haircut I liked:

probably AI generated but loved this. 

So the challenge was to go somewhere new to get it done. I live locally to many so it was research time.

One thing I learned about myself as a result of hiding my identity for so long was the need for research. In the past it was to avoid potentially embarrassing or revealing situations. Plan to avoid.

It still follows me because even being out and openly so for so long, I've achieved what I have not by luck or on the fly but with meticulous planning.

So I looked locally at hairdressers. Who was on social media, who had good Google reviews and even driving or walking past to check the ambience inside. I'd have been a good advance liaison for MI6 lol .

So after deciding I booked online....yup still can't bring myself to ring up. 

Turned up, hair washed and photo presented....et volia:

Christmas party later that night at the Midland Hotel in Manchester (yes it's another Phase Eight dress!!). Not sure it looks anything like that picture but I've had loads of compliments.

Another thing ticked off 

Will I go back there? Probably....it's very local, reasonably priced and I can easily book online. 

Did I feel at ease? Not really but I've a lot of pent up angst still so might take a few visits. Also I get the feeling they don't have a lot of experience of my community so perhaps we can go on this journey together?

I'm not sure if I'll ever enjoy it as an experience like I know many women do. Given time though....who knows.

Amanda xx