Variations

New years invariably never start off properly do they. Those first few weeks of cold days and dark nights make summer seem light years away.

Still I'm getting out being involved in my local community, including a dedication in Liverpool for violence against my community.

It's still beyond me that people hate what they don't understand but hate never really had logic did it.

As I'm back into my routine it's also time again for another set of blood tests. 

As part of both my pre op and post op medical situation, hormone monitoring is an essential ongoing situation.

Pre op it's testosterone suppression being replaced by oestrogen. Post op testosterone is trace so its all about balance and equilibrium.

Those figures above are my oestrogen levels for the last 4 years. Talk about a rollercoaster. December 22 was a particularly mad time.

Now I know fluctuations are normal but that range perhaps accounts for those periods when I'm overly sensitive or suffering from mild depression. Yup the latter is very much part of the life of a Transwoman.

Why? Possibly or probably hormonal but in particular we are still very much the culture war punch bag. 

So id like to apologise now for past or future discretions. Fluctuations like those above can be a bitch to handle. 

As one female friend said... welcome to the sisterhood.

And yet we are considered by some as cosplaying being female....

It's a strange old world isn't it...

Amanda xx