Progress
Thanks again for the continued interest in my little blog. I suspect I may have a few more reading this in light of recent events. If so then welcome and I hope this is an informative read and please feel free to browse the older blogs to get a sense of the journey so far.
Perhaps in time I'll convert this to a book and then a movie. I can hope and might pay for some of the physical changes required in the future, until then I rely on a lottery win.
My domestic situation remains unchanged and the usual pettiness and unnecessary atmosphere continues. So be it, rather used to it now.
However on the coming out front there have been a few changes to report. Telling people you are trans as you can imagine is far from easy. No one has guessed so far and all have been super understanding. That said it is getting easier. This week I have broached it with the two remaining people I want to tell 121 in work. Both were friends for a long time and I must to admit to being super nervous about this but both were excellent. Ive yet to receive any negative response although I suspect its still out there. Finished the weekend letting another couple of friends know. I am now ready in due course for the big reveal!
I keep hearing "its their problem not yours" from a lot of people. I am taking that view now. I had thought in my new life I would have to make concessions and perhaps abstain from things i like now to try and fit in. I am now certain that I don't have to do that. Yes I will have to let people get used to me and adjust (I'm not an in your face type of person anyway) but in time why cant I be me and do what I want.
I am pondering on having a "meet Amanda" night out in the village in Manchester one Friday night after work. Invite along all that know and just break the final barrier down i.e. seeing me in my femme persona. I think that will be an easier way to break the ice and reiterate that its still me underneath. Watch this space for any updates on if and when.
There have also been a few smaller things happening since I last wrote.
I purchased a pair of super skinny jeans from M+S. Plenty of stretch in them and so happy that they fit albeit I do have to peel them off lol. I think I may get a few different colours of then. Once you know something fits then I tend to go for it.
I also have phase one of my wedding outfit (see previous blogs about my trip later this year). As the bride may read this all I will reveal is its a dress and navy blue in the main. I had been watching and researching for months various combinations off the shelf so to speak and couldn't quite find what I wanted. A sudden light bulb moment and I decide why couldn't I "build" my own outfit instead. The dress is part one but other elements have fell into place now I have the style and colour. Just got to get them. The dress fits excellently and looked brilliant on.
Each time I try something new on after buying it, I feel that little part of me coming to life and it reassures me that I am making the right decision.
The next big step and a priority is the hair. The length is nearly how I want it to now although I am toying with longer in time, Hair grows on average 6 inches a year but based on my growth since last cut, then I may be a bit quicker than that. I was able to put it in a pony tail recently and do so each night to stop it getting in my face. Again another little thing that brought it to me what was changing. Got a little flutter when I did that for the first time.
The first thing is to get it cut to style. Its just grown organically and needs tidying up. I was hoping that I would be in my own place at this point and could have someone come round but this isn't going to be. I may well need to take the big step of going to a salon. I don't it seem know anyone in that industry!
Then the colour. I saw a photo of me just this weekend and it is really grey and would benefit from colouring. I am heading towards a dark brown with a tinge of red. I think I may well be able to do that. Pending that its going to be wig wearing and a lot of pinning my hair up underneath the same.
It is with some despair that I keep reading transphobic articles in the daily press. The vast majority is scare mongering and down right offensive. Please everyone keep an open mind. Not one of the people who know me guessed me so how many more are out there that you don't know about. We have a right to live our lives in peace and happiness. Just so happens we weren't genetically programmed right at the outset, not by choice I can assure you.
In the alternative watch the add in the link below and see how an enlightened approach can show how LGBT+ people can be an intrinsic part of society. I particularly like the tag line!
YouTube - Labels are for bottles!
Until next time, I again remind you that I am glad to answer any questions or discuss matters. Dont be shy and please feel free to talk to me on or off line.
Amanda G H
xxx
Perhaps in time I'll convert this to a book and then a movie. I can hope and might pay for some of the physical changes required in the future, until then I rely on a lottery win.
My domestic situation remains unchanged and the usual pettiness and unnecessary atmosphere continues. So be it, rather used to it now.
However on the coming out front there have been a few changes to report. Telling people you are trans as you can imagine is far from easy. No one has guessed so far and all have been super understanding. That said it is getting easier. This week I have broached it with the two remaining people I want to tell 121 in work. Both were friends for a long time and I must to admit to being super nervous about this but both were excellent. Ive yet to receive any negative response although I suspect its still out there. Finished the weekend letting another couple of friends know. I am now ready in due course for the big reveal!
I keep hearing "its their problem not yours" from a lot of people. I am taking that view now. I had thought in my new life I would have to make concessions and perhaps abstain from things i like now to try and fit in. I am now certain that I don't have to do that. Yes I will have to let people get used to me and adjust (I'm not an in your face type of person anyway) but in time why cant I be me and do what I want.
I am pondering on having a "meet Amanda" night out in the village in Manchester one Friday night after work. Invite along all that know and just break the final barrier down i.e. seeing me in my femme persona. I think that will be an easier way to break the ice and reiterate that its still me underneath. Watch this space for any updates on if and when.
There have also been a few smaller things happening since I last wrote.
I purchased a pair of super skinny jeans from M+S. Plenty of stretch in them and so happy that they fit albeit I do have to peel them off lol. I think I may get a few different colours of then. Once you know something fits then I tend to go for it.
I also have phase one of my wedding outfit (see previous blogs about my trip later this year). As the bride may read this all I will reveal is its a dress and navy blue in the main. I had been watching and researching for months various combinations off the shelf so to speak and couldn't quite find what I wanted. A sudden light bulb moment and I decide why couldn't I "build" my own outfit instead. The dress is part one but other elements have fell into place now I have the style and colour. Just got to get them. The dress fits excellently and looked brilliant on.
Each time I try something new on after buying it, I feel that little part of me coming to life and it reassures me that I am making the right decision.
The next big step and a priority is the hair. The length is nearly how I want it to now although I am toying with longer in time, Hair grows on average 6 inches a year but based on my growth since last cut, then I may be a bit quicker than that. I was able to put it in a pony tail recently and do so each night to stop it getting in my face. Again another little thing that brought it to me what was changing. Got a little flutter when I did that for the first time.
The first thing is to get it cut to style. Its just grown organically and needs tidying up. I was hoping that I would be in my own place at this point and could have someone come round but this isn't going to be. I may well need to take the big step of going to a salon. I don't it seem know anyone in that industry!
Then the colour. I saw a photo of me just this weekend and it is really grey and would benefit from colouring. I am heading towards a dark brown with a tinge of red. I think I may well be able to do that. Pending that its going to be wig wearing and a lot of pinning my hair up underneath the same.
It is with some despair that I keep reading transphobic articles in the daily press. The vast majority is scare mongering and down right offensive. Please everyone keep an open mind. Not one of the people who know me guessed me so how many more are out there that you don't know about. We have a right to live our lives in peace and happiness. Just so happens we weren't genetically programmed right at the outset, not by choice I can assure you.
In the alternative watch the add in the link below and see how an enlightened approach can show how LGBT+ people can be an intrinsic part of society. I particularly like the tag line!
YouTube - Labels are for bottles!
Until next time, I again remind you that I am glad to answer any questions or discuss matters. Dont be shy and please feel free to talk to me on or off line.
Amanda G H
xxx
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