Dawning
Hi all.
Thanks as always for tuning in. Been a rash of views from North America so I thank our American cousins for checking this out. Have a nice day!
So I have made it out a dark fugg. The gap in the blogs this year was probably as a result of me feeling sorry for myself. Lasted longer than I hoped but as always, once I think things out I become more focused and can then push on. The house will be what it will be so I have to be more proactive. When I look back, I intended on taking 6 months in my new gaff before starting to live full time. I wont need that now and will start living at home instantly. Then I'll do the paperwork, followed quickly by GIC referral and seeking out hormones. Within a few weeks I hope work will be ready to take me. Therefore the delay in selling up really hasnt had that much effect on things. I'll be ready at around the same time as I planned. In the interim I will use the time to get ready. Mentally I am there and my mind hasnt been clearer.
So what is going on or will shortly.
Well as my work are sponsors / supporters of their local pride (Bristol) and they have been so good for me I have booked a hotel down there that weekend and will be attending and hopefully helping out. Looking forward to it. Thanks to delay / repay and Northern Rail I have enough vouchers saved up to get the train down!!
To those that don't know, hormones have a slow effect on changes to my body. Notably breast growth can take some time depending on my physiology. I wont know until I start which will be later this year. In the interim I use prosthetic breasts. Fit nicely in my bra and look and feel real for now. They werent the most expensive but do the job. A by product of growing my nails is that I need to be a bit more careful with my delicate items including my "forms". Well a stray nail caught then and tore the outer skin. I knew I would have to replace them just now going to be have to be sooner rather than later.
I have also had the chance to go through all my clothing and play around with combinations etc. I now have plenty of clothing to cover work and home. Some additions needed for slobbing on the sofa etc but I am as good as there. A handbag was added this month taking my tally to 7. How does that compare ladies?
Which leads me nicely onto the last remaining concern I have. I know forever I will be a transwoman but it is my deepest desire to blend in as a female as much as possible. There is a female culture and social structure that will be difficult to truly break down. I have been out for over 6 months yet and I am trying to build confidence in females who know me that I am no threat and simply want to be like them. So if you know me and are female, engage with me as any other female and I will reciprocate. I want to learn and be fully up to speed when I cross over to your side. You wont have a bigger supporter for all that is wrong between the genders as I can bring a load of experience and differing views.
I have views on fashion, make up etc and even men (yes indeed) so don't feel you have to talk past me or over me. I'm never one for not expressing an opinion lol and I love a gossip. Talk to me face to face of chat online. Just be nice to be involved.
So I hope next time I blog (which will be regular again I hope) that I have a better idea of when I'll be ready to move on. I know one thing, I am looking forward so much to being me, bringing something to the trans community (as an advocate and more) and hopefully finding some companionship and maybe love. I live in hope as I genuinely have forgotten what it feels like to be appreciated as me. Oh would it be nice to be chatted up. You know properly over a drink or at a meal. Even dating, God that has been so long and I am looking forward to being on the other side.
As Google+ has bit the dust (no loss) this now only gets shared when I share it. Please feel free to pass this on. I have no qualms about who I am and where I am going.
So I leave you in a positive frame of mind. I am ready to go when the flag drops. As always ask anything!
Amanda
xxx
Thanks as always for tuning in. Been a rash of views from North America so I thank our American cousins for checking this out. Have a nice day!
So I have made it out a dark fugg. The gap in the blogs this year was probably as a result of me feeling sorry for myself. Lasted longer than I hoped but as always, once I think things out I become more focused and can then push on. The house will be what it will be so I have to be more proactive. When I look back, I intended on taking 6 months in my new gaff before starting to live full time. I wont need that now and will start living at home instantly. Then I'll do the paperwork, followed quickly by GIC referral and seeking out hormones. Within a few weeks I hope work will be ready to take me. Therefore the delay in selling up really hasnt had that much effect on things. I'll be ready at around the same time as I planned. In the interim I will use the time to get ready. Mentally I am there and my mind hasnt been clearer.
So what is going on or will shortly.
Well as my work are sponsors / supporters of their local pride (Bristol) and they have been so good for me I have booked a hotel down there that weekend and will be attending and hopefully helping out. Looking forward to it. Thanks to delay / repay and Northern Rail I have enough vouchers saved up to get the train down!!
To those that don't know, hormones have a slow effect on changes to my body. Notably breast growth can take some time depending on my physiology. I wont know until I start which will be later this year. In the interim I use prosthetic breasts. Fit nicely in my bra and look and feel real for now. They werent the most expensive but do the job. A by product of growing my nails is that I need to be a bit more careful with my delicate items including my "forms". Well a stray nail caught then and tore the outer skin. I knew I would have to replace them just now going to be have to be sooner rather than later.
I have also had the chance to go through all my clothing and play around with combinations etc. I now have plenty of clothing to cover work and home. Some additions needed for slobbing on the sofa etc but I am as good as there. A handbag was added this month taking my tally to 7. How does that compare ladies?
Which leads me nicely onto the last remaining concern I have. I know forever I will be a transwoman but it is my deepest desire to blend in as a female as much as possible. There is a female culture and social structure that will be difficult to truly break down. I have been out for over 6 months yet and I am trying to build confidence in females who know me that I am no threat and simply want to be like them. So if you know me and are female, engage with me as any other female and I will reciprocate. I want to learn and be fully up to speed when I cross over to your side. You wont have a bigger supporter for all that is wrong between the genders as I can bring a load of experience and differing views.
I have views on fashion, make up etc and even men (yes indeed) so don't feel you have to talk past me or over me. I'm never one for not expressing an opinion lol and I love a gossip. Talk to me face to face of chat online. Just be nice to be involved.
So I hope next time I blog (which will be regular again I hope) that I have a better idea of when I'll be ready to move on. I know one thing, I am looking forward so much to being me, bringing something to the trans community (as an advocate and more) and hopefully finding some companionship and maybe love. I live in hope as I genuinely have forgotten what it feels like to be appreciated as me. Oh would it be nice to be chatted up. You know properly over a drink or at a meal. Even dating, God that has been so long and I am looking forward to being on the other side.
As Google+ has bit the dust (no loss) this now only gets shared when I share it. Please feel free to pass this on. I have no qualms about who I am and where I am going.
So I leave you in a positive frame of mind. I am ready to go when the flag drops. As always ask anything!
Amanda
xxx
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