Phase Two
Hiya my blog readers. Thanks as always for reading this blog.
Well the long awaited first step has taken place. House sold and moved out for now back to my dad's being the home of my childhood.
Weird week. All sorts of emotions. From anger, frustration, sadness and disbelief. Either way after some time for reflection I am more convinced that it was the right thing to do.
Coming back here is just a short stop as the survey on my new house is sorted and I have a mortgage offer. Just the legal stuff to resolve and I can move properly.
I said in my last blog that you can choose your friend's but not your family. I think the most disappointing part of this journey has been my experience with my family. Dad still doesn't get it and I have been ostracised by the kids. As far as I know they don't yet know but generally I really don't get why you wouldn't unconditionally support family be it knowing or simply as part of the separation process. I don't get the taking of sides thing. I doesn't serve a purpose as neither does failing to accept my decision to transition. It is not how I would be so I am very much upset at my family approach to me to the point that I now feel distinct indifference to them. I know it may sound selfish but it seems time to put me first.
Friends however have been superb and supportive and continue to be so. I at least have someone to rely on.
Once I have unpacked in my new home the formal transformation to Amanda starts. Socially and domestically I will start to live as her immediately . I can start planning for work and the change in documents. If you haven't met Amanda yet you will soon. I look forward to her meeting you all.
So preparation continues. Bits and bobs being bought. Potential Christmas party outfit, blouse, leather skirt and some gorgeous boots which I think I'll start wearing immediately. Wore a ribbon in my hair to work and no one batted an eye.
It's been a tough few years and recent weeks particularly so. However I can see the rest of my life panning out ahead of me nicely now and I am so ready for it all.
One recent decision made. I'm going to go full on red head. Always felt it was the right thing for me and again will do so once I move in my gaff.
Until then, take care and hope you see me soon
Amanda xx
Finally moved house! The start of the rest of your life. :-) Regarding family, trying to look on the bright side... Even though your dad doesn't get it, he's been kind enough to put you up for a month or two - I guess he could have taken the other view of having nothing to do with you. The "taking of sides thing" - I can't understand it either. In their situation, you (like me) would take take a rational approach, wish someone the best and do what you can to help. It's sad but maybe they will come round in the end. (crossed fingers...)
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